New baby nephew....and a TON of snow!!

My sister had her baby yesterday morning. Owen Les, 9lbs, 20 inches long. Big baby!! I was totally going to go up to Ft. Wayne today after work to see him and Bri but the snow kinda put a damper on my plans. School was cancelled today, which I figured it would be. I'll be surprised if we even go tomorrow, considering it's STILL snowing!!! I can't even see my road and I live in town! So, I'm sitting at home, bored today. Fun stuff. I may not get up to see Owen and Bri until this weekend, which is a total bummer. She keeps sending me pictures and he's so cute. I can't wait to see him and hold him! =)
So, I've actually been feeling pretty good this week. Monday night was the only time I've felt bad. I ended up with an awful headache that would not go away. I woke up Tuesday and it was still there so I didn't go to work until 10:00. But, I made it through the day feeling pretty good and I feel decent today as well. No nausea which is nice. I'm so glad I have a 2 week break before I hit the rough stuff. Almost done!! 11 more treatments to go til maintenance!!! Counting down.....

25 random things

1. I sometimes....ok quite a bit, wonder what might've been. Like what if I would've married Chris.....or what if I wouldn't of gotten back together with Travis and stayed dating that other guy.....(this is a big one). What if I would've moved to Chicago with Travis? Wow....to many what if's.
2. I'm addicted to shoes and clothes (I know, who knew? lol)
3. I still cry at Titanic.
4. I'm watch The Goonies every time it's on TV and own the movie. Greatest movie ever.
5. I kick butt at Guitar Hero. Challenge me....I dare you.
6. I wish I would've gone to college to get my music ed degree. Now I'm too lazy and too busy fighting cancer. And I wouldn't trade what I do now for anything.
7. I think I'm pretty darn funny.....and have a great sense of humor when it comes to my disease.
8. I constantly wish I could be on like Wheel of Fortune or Deal or No Deal. Who doesn't want to win money?
9. I never thought I meant that much to so many people until I got canser. (Yes I spelled it wrong-it has no right to be spelled correctly). I received SO many floweres and cards while in the hospital.....it made me feel great.
10. I didn't hang with the popular kids in school but I was nice to everyone. I had 2 groups of friends I hung out with.
11. I hated my step-dad growing up because I thought he was trying to take the place of my dad and I blamed my mom for my parents divorce. As I got older, (and smarter) I realized it was more my dad's fault and my mom did everything she could to make it work. My step-dad is now someone I cherish very much in my life and am so blessed God brought him to my mom. I wish I could go back and treat him nicer but I know he forgives me =) I was a rotten teenager!!
12. I love to sing but am scared to death to sing in front of people. Ever since I was little, I've dreamed of making it in the music business. Too bad that involves singing in front of millions!!
13. This is the longest I've ever been single since my freshman year in high school.....seriously. I have constantly had a boyfriend for the past 12 years. I have now been single for a year and realize I do not need a man to survive. In the past year, I've learned who I am and what I really want out of a relationship. Ready for my dream man God!! ;)
14. The only thing I remember about going to Florida when I was 2 was walking on these burr things that stung my feet. I remember I had to run into the ocean to get my feet to stop hurting.
15. When I was little, I was constantly looking at the littlest things and wondering what we were doing on this earth. I distinctly remember this peach colored pair of curtains in our old house. I even remember how they felt when you touched them.
16. I had to get 4 stitches in my hand when I was in the 3rd grade. I cut my thumb with a widget making a valentines day box. I tried hiding it from my mom but my sister told on me. I still remember screaming in the ER because they jabbed a needle in the cut to numb it and stitch it up. The nurse tried to make it better by giving me stickers and a sucker.
17. I cried when my nephew Brandt was born. If you really know me and everything I'd been through my senior year, you'll know why.
18. I used to call my sister Sissy when we were little. I could never imagine calling her Bri cause she was my sissy. Now, it'd be funny if I called her sissy rather than Bri.
19. I got pulled over in my dad's 66 red Thunderbird for squeeling the tired while cruising in Van Wert. I was a junior in high school. I told the cop I just didn't know how to drive it (yea right) so he told me to take it home. My dad then sang "And we'll have fun, fun, fun till daddy takes the T-bird away!" haha Man I miss that car
20. I have to sleep with a fan on for the noise. Even if it's freezing..I don't care
21. I once skipped school in high school and went to Ft. Wayne shopping with 3 girlfriends. We so got busted.
22. I've been to 13 Rascal Flatts concerts since 2004 and have met them twice. I used to average about 3 per summer. Yes, I'm obsessed. They are so awesome.
23. I had a huge crush on the guy who lived down the road from us when I was little. At one point he was my hero when I wrecked my bike.
24. I love eating but I'm obsessed with trying to have a perfect body. But not as obessesed as I was considering that's partly how I got cancer.
25. I have never felt more blessed in my life then I do now that I have canser. It's amazing what having a deadly disease does to you, your life and your body.

Chemo, chemo, chemo

Today was the wonderful chemo day. Yes, I'm being sarcastic. It went ok. So far so good on the nausea issue. Hoping I feel good so I can make it to work tomorrow. Only a few more weeks of treatment then I'm in maintenance!! I don't go back now for 2 weeks, which will give me a nice break before the really rough stuff hits. When I go back, I'll have 2 weeks of 4 days in a row. Which will suck because not only will I miss like, 2 weeks of work, but it makes me feel horrible. So, pray I make it through with flying colors and feel fine during those 2 weeks. I found out today that the new prescription I'm on is a stinking steroid, which is why I've been eating like a pig and I feel like I've blown up like a balloon. I HATE being on steroids. Thankfully, it's only for another week. We'll see how it goes I guess. My weekend was kinda blah. I didn't feel the best all weekend. Saturday was solo and ensemble for the high schoolers. I made it through even though I was pretty nauseous in the morning. The kids did pretty well, which is great. So, tomorrow its back to the grind. Hoping I feel ok and make it through the whole day. Guess we'll see how I feel tonight and in the morning!

Sick

Have felt like crap all week. Didn't even make it to work today. We have solo & ensemble in 2 days which I am so not ready for and neither are the students for that matter. I just pray I feel well on saturday and make it through the day!! I'm so ready to be done with all of this! 46 more days til maintenance!! Keep praying.

rough stuff

So, yesterday was chemo. And I still wasn't feeling the best from last week so add yesterday in the mix and I feel like I got run over by a truck. Yuck. I've been nauseous all day and PTL, I made it through work. I had cheer afterwards but the AD was great and said he'd keep and eye on them. It's going to be so hard getting through the next 2 months the way I'm feeling now. But...2 more months....then I'm done!! I trust in God completely and know He will get me through. Keep praying!

Still blah

I have felt like crap since chemo Monday. Thankfully, I haven't had the hiccups again but my stomach has not settled down. I've just been very.....well....blah. We were cancelled Thursday and Friday which was kinda nice. I did absolutely nothing. Last night and tonight we had basketball games. I didn't feel the best for either but it was good to get out of the house. We won both games which is great. I'm hoping to make it to church tomorrow, depending on how I feel and how the roads are. Monday is another chemo day. Same stuff so another week of yuckiness. February will be worse than this so I'm trying to prepare myself. Don't really think there's a way but I'm ready for March so I'm looking ahead! Almost done with all this crap for the most part. It's been rough but a blessing in disguise. Ready for the next chapter of my life!!

I hate having hiccups!!

I have had the hiccups 4 times today...yes 4!! And yesterday I had them twice. The chemo I started yesterday gives me the hiccups and it is driving me crazy!!! If you remember back in my blog in August, I had this same chemo and it gave me hiccups then too. Only at that time, I still had a fractured back so it was very painful. This time, it's just annoying. This round is also making me nauseous every day. I just keep thinking about March.....just gotta get through the next few weeks!! It's been snowing like crazy all day so it's hard to say if we'll have school tomorrow or not. I love the snow, just hate the nasty roads!! One of my neighbors, not sure who though, plowed out my driveway and sidewalk with their snow blower. Whoever you are-THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! There's no way I could get out there and shovel it out so I am so thankful to whomever plowed me out. God Bless you!!
Everyone stay warm and safe!!

Chemo sucks

Today was the start of a new round of chemo. My bone marrow results were good-still in remission! But this new round of chemo sucks. I was nauseous not even 5 minutes after I got it and am still not feeling the greatest. I had IT chemo today too which was awful considering my back is still sore from the bone marrow. And I'm exhausted from all of this. I have 2 more months to get through and then I'm home free. It's just going to be a rough 2 months!! Keep praying. God is working.

Snowy weekend

My week went fairly well. I'm still getting over the soreness of my bone marrow biopsy. It's not as sore as it was but I still have to watch how I sit and lay down and if I bump it.....OUCH! Last night's b-ball game was against Parkway which was kinda strange for me. I graduated from there and coached cheer there the last 3 years so it was almost awkward lol. And, the basketball team is doing pretty good this year. It was really good to see my old cheerleaders. Their coach for the time being is my old coach, Michelle, who I love so I was excited to see her. I knew it was going to be an exciting game and boy, was I right. We ended up winning, which was awesome. I had so much fun, as always, playing with the pep band. I can't say enough how much I absolutely love my job!! =) We were supposed to have a game tonight but it was cancelled due to weather. So, I'm just relaxing at home, watching Friends (what else!) and the Ravens/Titans game (Go Titans!). Tomorrow, weather permitting, I'm going to take my nephew, Brandt to see Bedtime Stories after church. So, hopefully the weather cooperates. I start my new course of treatment on Monday, which should be interesting. It's all new chemo for me except for one kind, so I'm worried it'll make me sick. I also have to get I.T. chemo, which is the chemo in my spine. Not looking forward to that, especially since my back is still sore from the bone marrow. So, keep me in your prayers! The first 2 weeks of Feb. I'll have 2 weeks of 4 day treatment, which is the stuff that makes me sick AND gives me high fevers. I'm praying that this time, it doesn't bother me. I can not afford to miss anymore work. I'm already not going to be getting paid through the summer since I haven't been working every day so I'm not sure how I'm going to get by. I'm hoping to get back to CJ's in March so I may have to pick up some extra hours in the summer. But, I have faith that God will provide. He always does and He has never left my side through this entire ordeal. I'm going to stay positive and not worry =) This is my year.....my turn to have a GREAT year! =)

Still sore

I am still sore from yesterday's bone marrow biopsy. Sleeping last night was pretty much out of the question, which was awful because I was so tired. I could only lay on the one side and even that wasn't comfortable. I was still in pain this morning so I didn't get to work til lunchtime. I'm still exhausted and am praying that I'm able to get a good nights sleep tonight. It sounds like we might be in for some more crappy weather tonight but I guess we'll see what happens. As for the book I've been reading, it's called Crazy, Sexy Cancer Tips. Sounds kinda crazy I know but it's a great book. It's basically a straight up, in your face approach to cancer. I really enjoy it. And my new approach on dressing up is already working. I got told today that I looked very nice ;) lol. And it made me feel great to be dressed up, even though I was still in pain. God is continually getting me through each and every day and I know He'll be here helping me through these next 2 rough months. I'm excited and ready to get to March as that is when I'll start my maintanance chemo. It'll be a once a month trip to the doctor then and mainly pills. Much better than now!! Thank you all for your continued prayers and keep the comments coming!! I love to get responses from people =)

Very painful day

Ok, so to describe what it feels like to get a bone marrow biopsy would be to imagine someone taking a very sharp rod and digging into your bone. Whatever pain you think that may be, times it by like 50 and maybe thats how it feels. It is the most painful expierence and I HATE it. My doctor is wonderful though and she talked me through it like she always does. My mama was there by my side too. I was clawing the crap out of my arm though. I still have red marks all over it and the procedure was 7 hours ago...lol. At one point, I clawed my mom's hand. I thought I was going to draw blood. I felt bad but she said it was fine. The doctor was very happy with how the marrow looked and we should have the results by next week. It hurts to even sit here and type. I'm hoping and praying that the pain subsides so I can get a good nights sleep and go to work tomorrow. With the new year, I decided to "dress to impress" so to speak. The book I'm reading says that just because you're sick, doesn't mean you have to look sick. Play dress up...look good! So, that's what I'm planning to do. I used to dress up all the time and I loved it. So, we're going to try it again =) I got alot of great clothes (and shoes!!) for Christmas so I can't wait to wear everything! I also got a treadmill for Christmas which totally kicked my butt yesterday. The doctor told me today that it'll take me a few weeks to be able to run but since I'm young, it won't take me long to get back into it. Hopefully I'll be able to get on it this week but not tonight!! I can barely sit so walking or running is out of the question. All in all, its been a pretty good 2009. But like I said, we're only 5 days in! lol But, with God's awesome guidance and blessings, it will continue to be an awesome year ;)

Does anybody still read my blog??

Does anybody seriously still read this thing?? Cause I haven't gotten any comments lately and that's just depressing lol. I know my family still reads it.....at least I think they do. And, even if no one does read it, this is like my online personal diary and I kinda like being able to vent =) So far, 2009 has been great. Granted, we're only 4 days in but still. Tomorrow is the dreaded bone marrow day. Not exactly looking forward to that!! But, I know it's needed to see how I'm progressing. So, pray that it goes well and is not to painful!!