Fighting off a cold....

Well, this has not been the most enjoyable break, thats for sure!! I'm trying to fight off a head cold, which for me, is not easy. A typical cold for me can turn into something much worse, since my infection fighters aren't 100%. So, I'm fighting like mad and on some antibiotics until I go for treatment on Monday. It's mainly just a stuffy head and scratchy throat and I'm TIRED! So, pray it goes away! Today I'm just laying around. I still have yet to put up my Christmas tree but I'm not sure if I have the energy to do it. Nor do I think I can do it by myself so we'll see. So-pray that whatever this is I'm fighting off, goes away FAST and I can get some rest.

Happy Turkey Day!!

Happy Turkey Day everyone!! I hope you all have a wonderful, blessed holiday with your family!! I know I will! Can't wait to eat some turkey ;)

Another post because I'm.......

LONELY!! This flipping sucks. I either need a roommate or a pet and considering I'm almost 26 years old, finding a decent roommate anymore is hard. I just get so bored and lonely sitting here at night, watching TV. I love my job, I love my house......just wish my family were in Celina. Not spread all over the darn state!!! It was so nice when my mom was here helping me out. Wonder if she'd come live with me??? haha....her hubby might not like that lol. I asked my sister if I could have one of her kids haha. I'm sure she'd let me for a day for sure, but not for keeps ;) Does anybody have any suggestions??? Living along is not fun!

This cancer may get my body.....

but it can NOT get to my soul. This has been such an up and down week for me. For some reason, everything has just really been getting me down. The treatments, the bills, feeling sick....basically feeling sorry for myself, which I was told today that it's ok to do that every once in awhile. I went to church this morning and it really helped. To lean on my church family and God.....that's the best medicine. I'm still a little down, but I'm really looking forward to this week. And I don't have treatment until Dec. 1st!! So, I'm praying for a great week. Also, you may or may not know that the house I am renting has been for sale the entire time I've lived in it. Well, I'm trying to work it out so I can purchase it and get it off the market. I'm not sure how, with 2 more years of treatments and bills but I'm hoping and praying that maybe we can work out some sort of land contract until I'm through with chemo, then try to get a loan to purchase it. So, please pray that all of that works out!! I love this house so much, I want to stay for good. =) Well, have a good week everyone. Please keep me in your prayers. I know God is so wonderful and He is going to lift my spirits. God Bless!

GO BUCKS!!

That's all I'm saying =) Let's go Scarlet and Gray!!!

Feeling better

I'm starting to feel better mood wise, which is good. Going to work definitely helps. The students make me laugh, which is great medicine =) Today was treatment day and it wasn't too bad. Right now, I'm feeling a little yuck, but this treatment doesn't bother me too bad so I'll be fine. Thank you all for your support through comments and your prayers. It really helps to know people care =)
I'm really excited for next week. My cousin, Lindsey, is coming home for Thanksgiving and staying here with me. We're actually going to go out on the town Weds night, which I'm so excited for! Just to get out and see people!! I'll be drinking water, of course =) It'll just be so great to get out!!! And I can't wait to see my family on Thanksgiving. Well, I'm going to make some dinner so chow for now! =)

Feeling low

The past couple of days, I've been feeling kinda low. I'm trying not to let it get the best of me but I'm just so sick of feeling sick and tired, and my back aching and getting bill after bill that techinically the insurance should be paying so I have to make call after call to get it paid for......and not having anyone to talk to because it seems the majority of my friends have dissapeared....I'm not trying to have a bitchfest but this is a blog and a place to vent I guess. Things aren't completely bad. I mean I LOVE my job and being at work makes me happy. I love the people I work with and my students. I just hate missing and the past few days, I haven't been able to get there at 8:00. I'm trying, I really am. I just want to be normal again. I never in a million years thought this would be happening to me. And believe me, I'm still fighting this like mad because I will NOT let the enemy win. And feeling this way is the enemy working so please pray for me. I know God is with me and trying to carry me through, I just need to let Him work. So, enough complaing. Time to get positive again.

weekend

Well, Friday night was our final football game. It was a GREAT game and I hate that it's over. Thankfully the rain held off until the very end up the game. God is so great, isn't he? The bus ride there was a little hectic. I felt sick twice so we had to stop the bus. I felt SO bad but they said it was ok. The ride home was better, thank goodness. Then, yesterday, my parents came over to help do some stuff around the house. It was really nice to see them and have some company. We ate dinner at Bella's which was yummy. After they left, my friend Dawn stopped by. I hadn't seen her since before I got sick so it was so nice to visit with her. Today was just a lazy day. After my busy week, I was exhausted!! And the Bengals, of all things, TIED today. No one won. Weirdest game ever!!

As for the CJ's benefit, it went very well and I am SO thankful to everyone who had a part in it. I have 2 more years of treatment so all the fundraisers are such a blessing. I'm saving every penny too! 2 years is a long time and I want to be sure I can get through it. But I know with God's help, I will be fine. I am conquering this disease and coming out on top, a better person and stronger in my faith. Our God is an AWESOME God!!

THANK YOU!!!

Thank you, thank you, thank you to everyone who came out to the benefit last night! I'm pretty sure it was a huge success!! And thank you SO MUCH to my Highmarks family!! You guys rock and I love you all!!! I had so much fun last night seeing everyone and visiting with the customers. I think I sat down for a total of a half hour! The rest of the time, I was walking around talking. I was sore by the end of the night, but it was a good sore! =) I was so tired though so I didn't go to work today until 10:00. And my back was pretty sore this morning but I was much better after lunch. All in all, it was a pretty good day. Tomorrow night is the football game so pray for nice weather!! I'm so excited! I'll be sure to dress warmly and I'm praying its a dry night!

Thank you all again for coming out and supporting me last night. I truly appreciate it!! =)

Feeling great

Today was a great day. I made it to work at 8am and felt great all day! My lower back has been hurting all day where they gave me the I.T. chemo but other than that, its been great. God is so great in answering my prayers to stay feeling good!! And I am so excited for tomorrow evening, for the CJ's benefit!! I can't wait to see everyone! Until then, I'm going to take it easy the rest of the night. See you tomorrow! =)

Treatment day

Today wasn't too bad. When we first got to the office, my nurse said I might be able to take this week off (which would've been fine with me!) but had to check with the dr first. Well, it turned out I got treatment anyways, which was ok. The I.T. of course was awful. When he inserted the needle into my spine, he was close to a nerve by my right leg so there was a pain shooting down it but the dr said it was normal and he was almost done. So, I made it through. I don't have to go back until next Thurday which is GREAT! The doctor said I'm doing so well and she's so glad. Same here! I'm a fighter and I will never give up. God has been with me through this entire disease and I know He will help me fight it and get rid of it. I AM HEALING! HE IS HEALING ME! And I praise Him daily for that. I have such a testimony to share with people and I can't wait to start!!

Great movie

Well, the movie was great and the boys actually both behaved during it and watched the whole thing! It was a cute movie and pretty funny. I'd recommend going and seeing it! I love going to Ft. Wayne and spending time with my sister and her family. My nephews are so cute and soon I'll have another one! =) I can't wait! We're still hoping for a girl though, of course! ;) Tomorrow is treatment day and I have to get I.T. chemo which is the stuff in my spine. Not fun, but necessary. So, keep me in your prayers that I get through it ok and have a great week again. I know God will be with me and I will though =) Have a great week everyone!

Quicky coming at ya!

This is going to be a quicky as my sister and I are getting ready to take my nephews to see Madagascar 2. But, I met a man at church today who's 22 year old daughter was just diagnosed a few weeks ago with bone cancer. He said she's having a rough time of it and I just wanted to blog and let her know I KNOW what she's going through. Don't give up! The first month or two of treatments is the worst but you'll get through. Put your trust and faith in God and He will guide you and carry you through this difficult time in your life. My personal battle with cancer has made my faith and relationship with God stronger and I have to thank Him for that. This is the worst possible disease in the world and at any time I could blame Him or think it's too hard and give up but I will NOT give in to the enemy and I hope you do the same. I want to share with you a verse that got me through the beginning stages of my cancer. It's from Phillipians 4: 4-7. It says: Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again, Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

I hope this helps you in some way. I would love to meet you at some point, if that would be ok with you. Until then, I will keep you in my prayers!

Well, I'm off to take my nephews to the movies (who are already fighting...this should be fun lol =) Have a great Sunday everyone! God Bless!

GO CAVS!

After a great week, I am exhausted! But it's a good exhausted =) I went to the game last night in Piqua and actually rode the bus with the band. It didn't bother my back or make me sick to my stomach which was good. The game was awesome and the Cavs won! It was a chilly game but I was dressed in multiple layers and kept warm. Next week should be an awesome game and I can't wait. Wednesday is also the CJ's fundraiser which I 'm also excited for. I can't wait to see everyone! Today, I don't think I'm doing a thing. It's cold and windy outside and I'm tired from a busy week. I think I'll just lay around the house and watch TV. I need to go to the store but don't feel like it today.....at least not right now....maybe later =) So, I'm going to take it easy and lounge around.

First full day

Today was my first full day back to work. I was actually able to get there at 8 (ok so it was 8:15 lol) and I stayed until 4. I have to say I am pooped!! It was a great day though and I plan on getting there tomorrow at 8 as well. I absolutely LOVE my job. It is the best job in the world and I thank God every day for allowing me to work at such a wonderful school and with such wonderful people and students. I LOVE IT!! Music is everything to me and I am so thankful to have a job in it. I look forward to going to work every day!

I've been feeling pretty good lately and I'm praying it continues. It was so beautiful outside today that I took a walk when I got home. The dr told me I need to start walking and getting some exercise. Next week's treatment is on Monday. I have to get the I.T. which is the shot in my spine that I HATE but I know is vital to my remission. I'm also supposed to get the intramuscular shot (the shot I reacted to last week) but they're not sure if they're going to continue to give it to me. The first time I got it, it was in 2 shots and I was fine. The second time, it was in 1 shot and I reacted so who knows. They'll tell me on Monday what they decided!!

Next Weds, the 12th, CJ Highmarks is having a benefit for me from 4-10. ALL tips and 40% of sales will be presented to me. They're also having an auction with merchandise from various local businesses at 7. I am so thankful to them for putting on this benefit. I can not thank them enough!! And I'm looking forward to attending and seeing my golfers!! =) As well as my friends and everyone else! Hope to see you all there!

Well.....

Earlier, when I blogged, I was very angry and upset. But after posting my original post (which I've deleted) I calmed down and decided to start over. This disease has taught me so much.....and has brought me closer in my walk with God. And I am so thankful for that. I have continually been blessed throughout this disease and I know God will continue to bless and heal me. It's been a good week and I know things will continue to get better. Thank you to those of you who have stuck by me and helped me along the way. And to those of you who continue to send your donations, thoughts and prayers. I truly appreciate it. Hopefully, I can find a way to "Pay it Forward".

I actually voted today. I originally said I wasn't going to but decided to anyways. I pray that God gives us a president who can help and lead our country.

Bengals finally win!

The Bengals finally won today!! And I had a great weekend! Friday night, the Cavs won the first game of the tournament. Yesterday, I had a great day hanging out with my sister and her family. My little 2 year old nephew was hilarious, as always. Brandt, my older nephew, was with his dad so I didn't get to see him. Logan though.....he is too funny. He always looks at my port sight and says it's my owie and kisses the opposite side. So cute. But, when I went to go home, he said I was going to where the helicopter was....meaning he thinks I live at he hospital =( Kinda sad but he hasn't been to my house in awhile and he's little so he doesn't know. I had to laugh. Today, I lounged around and slept. I was so exhausted after working all week. I'm trying so hard to get back full time but I haven't made it by 8am yet. It's hard to get up early after sleeping all the time. Plus, my legs hurt cause I'm not used to being on them so much and my back hurts from sitting at the piano and not being used to it. I haven't played since graduation so it'll take time to get used to it again. But, the pain isn't near as bad as before. It's only a dull ache, which the doctors said I'll get arthritis in my back from the surgery (fun). I know it'll get better in time. God is continuing to heal me every day and I am so thankful for that. Last week, a friend of mine commented on how positive and comical I am about my cancer. I told her that being depressed about it and having a woe is me attitude will get me no where. Positivity and faith in God will conquer this disease and get me through and thats just what I'm doing!! Winning the fight =)